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Fear?

They're there, they're there...everywhere,
the ring fence that shrouds me from the lare,
they're dark, they're white, they fend me off anything bright
they rejoice at the end of my every day
when I struggle to keep my sorrows at bay
What sorrows do I have, you ask?
Those that trample an idle man's brain
those that gnaw at my insides
those that threaten to spill
to wither in scarlet, to explode
to fountain up, to germinate in my soul.

They threaten to spread roots
reach my throat and grab my neck
get closer and warmer, strangle tight
until all the grey clouds take shape in my head.
I see shadows of my past self
the one with passion,
the one where I wanted to dwell,
wherever I turn, they appear
taunting me of my choices
rubbing my face with embers of regret
blooming cactii, gleaming thorn
on my dwight life.
they're there, they're there... everywhere
they spell out like rain
stain my hand like Macbeth's sin
they're loud, they're large,
they're visible, they're looming.
They're pacing faster every moment,
the ring fence that I live in 
moves closer every second,
the steel glinting like hot iron
I feel them burning
burning in my desires,
burning my desires, burying my ambition,
they're generous, abundant while spreading fear
every moment as they near, I tear down my insides
I tear down, I look around everywhere,
its dark, they're near.
They're there, they're there... everywhere.


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